Please Enjoy my Pity Party!

     I wish there was a word for the feeling I get every time I have to go back to college after a break. I wouldn't necessarily call it depression, but it's definitely akin to that. It's hard to describe to other people because I'm truly not unhappy at college, and I have friends there and feel like I'm learning a lot. But still, it just feels like when I'm at home, I'm back to me "real life", and when I'm at college, I'm just wasting time until I can get back to that "real life". Maybe it's proof that I'm really a complete homebody despite claims of being so independent. Or maybe secretly everyone feels this way and just never talks about it. It seems like nobody else at college ever gets homesick, or never cares about their family and friends from back home. But that's ludicrous! You can't just up and leave a place you've loved for 18 years with absolutely no side effects, right?

Yeah, I'm probably just being a baby.

     All I know is I have to go back to school tomorrow and I soooooo don't want to. Maybe it's the fact that for a month I've had no real responsibilities, and then when I go back, I immediately have to get back to my old job, plus start my new one, plus sit in class for three hours a day, plus do homework for that class, plus get back to my extra curricular activities. It's just so much and I just don't have the motivation or the energy or the desire to do any of it.
     Maybe I'm just throwing a pity party, but seriously, I won't be upset to graduate in 2 and a half years. People always say college years are the best years of your life, but I feel like that's not necessarily true. I think maybe they're just preparing me for the best years yet to come. And for now I just have to suck it up and deal with the obnoxious dread that comes with going back to school after Christmas break.

VaughnDL